What to put planed for week now

I have wanted to put this down for over a week. I have been kinda seeing six different girls at once. Some just pm e or twice but others a few times. I haven't been with any of then no matter what I may have said in the past blogs. I play off that I have with my room mate so he may tell his girl and she would tell grace. Stupid idea yes but fuck it I'm being a child right now. :0P LOL I can't seem to get grace out of my head. Every girl I have met I have known from the very first moment that it wasn't going anywhere but I still gave them hope that things may happen. Idk what I was thinking. I have tried to be the asshole and use instead of being used but it's not in me. I'm too nice. It's my nature to be nice. And I always get walked on. So I messed things up with two of them on perpose. It was hard to do but I managed. I most likely won't see either one again. Whatever I don't care. One was a drug adict and the other was an achohalic. Just nasty low poeple. I couldn't hang with them for long anyways. I realy don't think I deserve to be with anyone. I'm a loser. I have nothing to offer anyone. I'm broke. Have a kid. Have a bitch as an exwife that strives to make my life a liveing hell. Just so she feels better. Or she's just evil. The only thing I have is that I treat women right and don't cheat. Not much there. Besides women want a bad guy. They think they can fix him. They say they want a man like me but they realy don't. Idk. I'm done for now. Have to get up for work soon.