Time and such

So i have been wanting to write this for a time now. A few weeks ago i had a bad week. One day was horable. I had three accounts mess with me. One said thaey wanted 100 cases of beer over here and then changed there mind after i put it there. So i moved it to where they wanted it. Agter putting the rest of the order away in the cooler they wanted the 100 cases somewhere else. so i moved it again. Then they wanted it in a display fastion. building displays is not part of my job. But i did it anyways.So that was at one account i deliver to. the next two where close to that too. Just a crapy day. that week i made a few mistakes too. Just a bad week. Ontop of all else i have going on it almost broke me. Im still plugging along. I dont know why but i am. Things with grace have come to a halt. I know she is with someone now and it hurts alittle. I have tried to be her friend and have gotten very little responce from her. So the new year has come now and im not going to contact her at all. If someone wants to be my friend they will contact me. I have always contacted the person to hang out or what have you. And im done being that person. I have started this before new years but this year its all about me. Im going to work on myself. Do all the things i want to do since once im in a relationship its always about them. well no more. I also plan to have one date amonth and no sex for the whole year. The hard part will be getting the one date amonth. The no sex part is easy. I have gone two years without it in a row so shouldnt be hard to do a year. lol. Im doing this becase sex seems to get in the way of my life. i focuse on that and not all the other things i should be doing. so im going to focuse on everything else. I wish grace the best and that she wont get hurt this time but i belive she will get hurt. I hope that she contacts me and will be my friend. I dont think she will contact me for atleast two months. Just the prospect of all the things i have planed folr myself this year is makeing me hapy. I have hard times ahead but i know i can come through it stronger. I know i wanted to put more things down but cant for the life of me remember what they are. so either i dont need to put them down or i worked through them already.