strange feelings and time

;So grace and i are kinda of trying to be friends. i trying and shes avoding me. lol. i know she is seeing someone and i think shes going to get hurt. i hope thats not the case but part of me hopes it happens. im an ass for thinking like that. im still hurting from the brake up. i cant seem to get her out of my mind. im watching her critters while she is out of town seeing her family.i have met up with several girls since grace and i broke up and they dont hold a candle to grace. im not in the lest interested in the other girls. after i watch the critters and say welcome home. im not going to talk to her until she contacts me. its the only thing i think i can do. its whats best for me. if she wants to be my friend then she will get a hold of me.had so much more to put but i have to tend to the fire. more later

What am i thinnking

So its been two or three months since grace and i broke up. Im still takeing her dog to the park and im going to watching her critters when shes out of town for xmas. i think i was to hasty to do it for her. i should have said no but its not in my nature to not do things for my friends. but realy we arnt friends. we havent seen each other in over a month. hardly talked. i know shes useing me for my generosity. the only thing i can hope for is that she comes around some day and wants to be friends. im trying to leave it up to her. i stoppede fallowing her on twitter and on facebook. im not sure if she knows yet but i belive its what i need to do. i have been looking on both sites to see what shes up to. and realy it isnt any of my bussiness. i just hope shes not doing anything that will hurt her later on. she had an accident the other day and she didnt tell me about it right away. does she have to tell me no. but i would tell her if something happend to me. but im the nice person and im not saying that she isnt. i still think she has to find herself....no...um...find the person that she wants to be. i think shes on her way there. she has cleaned her house alot. got the clutter out of it...mostly. lol. i truely just want her to be happy. i would be lieing if i didnt wish it would be with me but its not going to be. i just hope that i can be her friend.