So close to the end...

There are things happening to me that i cant handle any more. I have no more to hold on to. im so close to ending it all by killing myself. i work my ass off and think im going in the right direction but i end up getting forther and forether behind. there is no out for me. the hole only gets bigger and deeper. there is too much on my shoulders. i cant handle it anymore..........

Lost

So i have been trying to take care of things. All the things that have been over my head for the last year or so. All my baggage you may say. one of them is the IRS. i have been trying to set up a payment plan for almost a year now. I make just under 2000 a month right now. my bills are almost as high as my income. infact if i dont make as much i cut money from food so i can pay my bills. I just got a letter in the mail from the IRS and they made a payment plan for me. the only thing is that its way way way more than i can possable afford. i have no idea on what to do. i have called and left the guy i was talking to about the payment plan. left him a msg. i need to talk to him. get this changed. because omnce they garnish my wages i only have a few options.....keep working and live out of my truck/on the streets....or quit my job and move in with mom and dad(they wouldnt let me in)...or kill myself. its amazing to me how every day gets worse and worse for me. no matter what i do it never gets better. every day i keep telling myself and convinseing myself not to kill myself but every day gets harder and harder not to. I am lost.