Im stupid

My roommate was right. I shouldn't have talked to her. its makeing things hard for me again. Im starting to care too much about her i was almost to the point where i was cool with what ever. i think grace has done the right thing. if we were ment to be together she whould have realized it by now. i know she wont get back with me now. its hard to swallow. I know that she lied to me tonight...well she may have i dont know for sure yet. this is getting to be way too hard again. i need to move on and get rid of what little hope i have left gone. the only thing that i can speed up the time line is to get hooked up with someone else. i dont want to do that cus i know that we wouldnt work out cus i still have feelings for grace. idk what to do. all i can do and have thought about this all day is to cut grace out of my life for a time until i feel its safe to let her back into my life. theres nothing else i can do. i talked to her yesterday and thats how all this started. she called me and we chated for a minute. after we hung up all i wanted to do was go see her. i know thats not a good idea. i cant handle seeing her right now. from just talking to her i want things to work out. i said i will watch her dog when she goes out of town. as my roommate pointed out to me yesterday...im not letting her chase me. im giveing her everything she wants without the case and no good can come of it. i know hes right now. thats another reason i need to stop talking to her and not see her for a long time.