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So i know i cut things off with grace since i cant seem to just try to be friends. i want more and its confuseing me. i want to be around her but i know its mainly the fact that im bored and atleast around her i have things to do. i know she wont go back to me but i cant but help to hope. i have to think about it realy hard today. i say today because she plans on makeing soap tomorrow and i want to make it with her. i enjoy the prosece. its very cool to me. i dont know if we can be friends. meaning that i dont know what we would do. or if she would even have time for me as a friend or if she wants to be friends. idk at this point. i wil think about it hard today. i have to think about if im around as her friend that that would make it so that im around and that would mean she didnt miss me. and there whould be no chance of her wanting me. i have to choose and i think i have already made my decision but i want to make sure before its final. im meeting someone new today as friends. who knows what will happen. im always looking for new friends. and if i can find a few that i can start hanging out with i will be busy and wont think about grace.