Universe smacking

So I laid in bed last night thinking and then fell asleep. When I woke up today I felt diferent. As I'm driveing to work the idea that I'm a nice guy and hasn't worked for me yet and that I I was a n asshole I should get lots of action. :0) nice so I tweet that I'm done being nice and I'm going to be an asshole from now on. Not ten min later I was tring to be a dick tosome one and the universe smacked me hard!!! I felt ill I stently at the same time the thought she will never come back to you in that way again. So my day went on. An hour or so later I was being nice to someone that I should have punched. This happens. Feel even sicker and nose is running down the street at this point. The thought...she may still be with you in that way. Now witch is it? No or yes. But through the day clarity has come to me. We were ment to be together for that time. We helped each other in so many ways that may not have been done through just friendship. Now that it's over we still can be friends after time. When it's safe to be around eachother. Now I know she is seeing or just being with someone. I belive I know who it is. But realy it doesn't matter. Because I know she's trying to fill the hole I left. It may work for a time but won't work in the end. I have been looking at the picture of my life too close. I need to see the big picture. I know now that grace and I are done as a couple. And It may hurt to say but the facts are the facts. Idk how much of a roll I will be playing in her life or the other way around.